Wednesday, November 11, 2015


Our baby's remembrance tree has turned a vibrant yellow and has officially started losing it's leaves this week. And as each one falls to the ground, I think my heart breaks a little more.


My baby's due date.

Today I'm at work carrying on as if it is another regular Wednesday...sending emails, answering my phone, performing at the level I typically do. But the pain in my heart is probably the deepest I've felt in a long time.

All of the steps forward and back over the past 6 months have all led me to the same dead end. Today is a day I just have to get through. Nothing anyone can say or do will make it any easier, either. I am just going to surrender to all the "should bes" and "what could have beens."

Today is a regular day for everyone else, but not to me.

Today I carry her heart. I carry it in my heart.

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

jurassic park halloween

In an effort to keep busy this week, I wanted to share some pictures from our Halloween. This year's theme: Jurassic Park. How many more years until Joe refuses family-themed costumes?

Props to James for building this legit electric fence out of PVC pipe and wire rope... AND somehow getting it to hang around Joe's wagon. And, well, let's just say I did a little extra laminating at work. :)

Dinosaur costume

Dinosaur family costume

Electric Fence

Jurassic Park Halloween

High Voltage Sign

Dinosaur Wagon

Jurassic Park T-Rex

DIY Electric Fence