BUGS & BUTTERFLIES BIRTHDAY

Joe and Faye are 3 years and 2 days apart. They actually came very close to having the same birthday. I went to the hospital “in labor” with Faye the night before Joe’s 3rd birthday and spent about 6 hours there without any progression. Since I was already very overdue, the doctor suggested I start the induction process, but I decided to go back home instead and wait it out. I really didn’t want my kids to have to share a birthday. I was induced 2 days later. 

TIMING IS EVERYTHING

Last Friday marked the 2 year anniversary of my 2nd trimester abortion -- the day we said goodbye to our daughter, Grace. The day started with tears and ended with a family dance party. It was perfect.

NEW YEAR'S GATSBY STYLE

The New Year is a time to reflect on the past year and enter into the next with a renewed sense of hope and enthusiasm. For me, 2017 was an absolute blessing. After 2 rough years struggling to grow our family, we finally welcomed sweet Faye Elizabeth into the world last January. That little lady has brought me back to life in a million and one ways and I can't believe she will be turning one in a few weeks. I spent the first half of 2017 in shock that she was actually here and the 2nd half in shock with how fast the first half went.

SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE

Today I came home to a letter from a collection agency for a balance we owe on our abortion. An abortion that happened 2 years ago next month.

THIS IS US -- FROM A PREGNANCY LOSS SURVIVOR

The show This Is Us has become my weekly therapy session. I usually get cozy in bed with my big box of Kleenex, ready for whatever they're going to throw at me next. And for whatever reason, it always feels so good to cry alongside the characters. From the very first episode with the doctor's monologue about life handing us sour lemons, to Kate's body image issues and her strained mother-daughter relationship, this show is so emotional for me because it hits on so many relatable aspects of my life. And tonight, well, it hit the hardest.